conjuu [deleted due to internal errors]

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2008-01-14T04:40:50Z

holy frick such a long time since i used LJ. hmm lets see...
well my birthday is coming up; pretty cool :)
still with jacky, things are the same in that department.
out of work currently! dedicated my time to being in the drama production & preparing for competition with show choir.
planning what i'm going to do in university...
creative arts therapist is where i am headed! psychology is important...
umm...
things with my mom are kinda rocky, but that is the usual as well...
not too much else to report.
ciao friends!

well..

2007-09-16T19:50:21Z

it all happend so quickly.
it's so wonderful to have you back in my life.
i love you.

first love never dies.

-conjuu

happenings

2007-08-27T05:58:00Z

ahoy! long time no post (as usual)
keeping up appearances and shit! LOL
new things in life... new relationship (carter..<3), still workin' at eb. lots of conventioning; lots of friends! i miss ya'll already (vancouver was fun!)
umm...yeah! school is starting again soon so i'm pretty excited about that. woot woot.
i dunno... umm!
open for questions and shit? hahaha i use facebook now!
add me on facebook
Stephanie Foran
peace~

from my facebook

2007-07-14T16:01:49Z

i don't usually like to broadcast my feelings out here like this, but here it goes.

i am lost now. lost from love. i was in love, once. it was beautiful, strong, and powerful. that sort of power left me with a true, deep happiness. when it was ripped from me, it took a large chunk of my heart with it. the chunk of my heart that was capable of love.

now i am lost again, flirting and seeing where life will take me. meeting all sorts of new people, new types and new styles. for now this is where my life is, and i know i won't always be here. i want my wounds to heal, and i want my heart to be the way it used to be. strong and willing to give all it can... i did that, and it left me in a horrible place at the end. i am still afraid.

those of you who think i have it all, who think i am happy and popular, please realize that inside i am sad and lost, just like everyone else is.

slowly i am rebuilding myself into the me that i have always wanted to be; and while i am at it, i am enjoying having so many new people in my life to touch me, and to expose me to new emotions and experiences. my new friends are golden friends, and i hope to never lose you; you've been with me at my weakest.

so while my heart is healing, i am lost. i am exploring... and don't try to run in and "save me"; healing and growing as a person is something i need to do on my own. to the one who had my heart, thank you for giving me the happiness that only true love can offer, and thank you for being a best friend, and a wonderful lover. thank you for the gift of memories, thank you for the gift of new experiences... thank you for the gift of love. i hope you remember me as a good thing.

when i am healed, i will be waiting for love again.

the greatest love of all must be the love for yourself.

this is the only time i have shared my feelings this way in a long, long time. i hope you will respect it all... my friends!

love, love, love, love love love! makes the world go 'round. right?

so much!

2007-06-20T17:19:34Z

yo i hardly post here.. but i assure you, my life is going on!
job at EB, very good.. fun times there.
converted to buddhist recently, also trying my hand at becoming vegetarian.
a lot of happenings in the relationship department, though none of which i am proud of or would like to share LOL
and um. yeah thats about it!

-conjuu

woo

2007-05-29T03:27:51Z

yay for steph
interview at EB tomorrow.
yey~~~~~~

-conjuu

oh man

2007-05-26T20:31:55Z

i haven't posted in here in so long.. i feel like i an neglecting my life by not recording it! LOL!
otafest was a blast - so much work, and i loved every second of it. i really want to thank all of my friends on the exec team for being awesome people. you guys kick ASS! and i don't think i will ever be the same now that we've become closer.
school is driving me a little bit nuts, i don't know what the fuck i am doing! aiyah...

relationships are driving me loopy too..what the hell am i doing?

anyway..um! i miss you guys.. i also have anew cell phone number

1 403 466 1125

peace everyone!

-conjuu

weird

2007-05-05T06:11:35Z

do this ya'll!

Ask me a question about each of the following:
1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. Livejournal
No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential.

peace!

-conjuu

loli!

2007-05-04T04:18:36Z

kat & i

peace out!

-conjuu

dear youtube!

2007-04-05T02:02:14Z

can't think of a witty comment, or just don't have anything to say?

idea!

just copy one or two of the lines from the video! that's great! because no body else has watched the video, and the joke is just way more funny coming from you.

-conjuu

so

2007-03-08T05:54:35Z

every day is the worst day of my life.
-conjuu

one day

2007-02-25T21:08:50Z

when you turn into a bird and fly away from me
i will turn into a tree
and wait for you to come home

-conjuu

happy one year...

2007-02-20T03:09:37Z

happy one year to myself and jacky.
too bad it's our last.
goodbye, honeybee.
i'm sorry it all had to end.
i love you, and i always will...
we'll see what the future holds.

-stephanie.

.. crazy lady

2007-01-27T22:26:22Z

i have a crazy lady as a neighbour. she comes over a lot and rings my doorbell. i go to the door and she starts asking me about a mexican realtor... my cat comes up behind me and she tries to take her.
what the.

-conjuu

its my birthday!

2007-01-25T07:05:17Z

its my birthday today!!
and all is well in my life... for now. LOL.

yay!

-conjuu

it's high time i did this

2007-01-17T21:03:17Z

Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then put this in your own journal, and spread the love.

weee!!

woot

2007-01-17T00:52:05Z

conjuu is employed yo. i work at laura secord in southcentre mall. woo~
thats about all.

-conjuu

i am in LOVE!

2007-01-09T04:01:48Z

i have the best holiday of my life.
happy new year everyone...

i think i am in heaven... but if home is where the heart is.. why am i back in calgary?

-conjuu

sick

2006-12-04T18:26:27Z

i am sick as a dog! i better kick this cold before my christmas concerts.

fuck you old man winter!

2006-11-27T23:10:06Z

screw you -40 degree weather! screw you frost bite!

-conjuu

happy nine months, jacky.. <3

2006-11-24T23:39:17Z

nine months today! not much longer until we're together again! (if only for ten days..) ten days together to celebrate our ten months!

woot... even through all the crap i've been through lately
not much could spoil this day...

-conjuu!

singing lessons! first class tonight

2006-11-21T02:59:10Z

wow~~ voice lessons are really good. my teacher = awesome! very inspiring. he even had a long distance relationship with his fiancee for three years and had a lot to say about it. quite inspiring actually. i learnt a lot about care of my voice and all that - i dunno, it was nice to talk about music and all that jazz. i feel better tonight...

-conjuu

yo

2006-11-20T02:06:22Z

so what the fuck? i am totally apathetic towards my whole life. i finally know why everyone who i am surrounded by is sad and miserable... because i make them that way. i'm sorry to those of you who read my journal for my happy posts about how awesome my life is, but thats a load of shit as of tonight. i just don't care anymore. i just... i don't know. i know it will pass ... but i hate this shit so bad.

-conjuu

yes

2006-11-17T21:00:07Z

do you really love me?
i do.
don't leave me.
alright.

aw..

2006-11-08T04:27:37Z

thanks to everyone who was so concerned yesterday
it means a lot to me
you guys cheered me up...

i'm good now. depression can be just as fleeting as happiness...

thanks, guys.

-conjuu